It's been almost a year..

Since my last post....

I know no one really cares. I'm pretty sure I never had any real followers. But I've been thinking lately, it's time to come back. For me, to help myself and hopefully help others, or help others to understand. So much has happened in the last year, I don't even know where to begin. But I hope this beginning is also the end, and you'll understand why as you read this post. (If anyone is reading this post.)

Last February, the 14th, Valentine's day. It was one of the happiest days in our life, right up there next to our wedding day and the day we got engaged. We found out I was pregnant. After 8 (what seemed like long) months of trying. We were thrilled and so excited. A few weekends later we got together with our family for my 28th birthday, and that's when we told them. I was just shy of 6 weeks and didn't have any thoughts that anything could go wrong. Unfortunately, that same night we told our family, I began spotting. Out of no where. No signs, no cramps, Just the spotting. We ended up driving home to the hospital where my doctor is affiliated with to be seen there. After several long hours of waiting, Tim and I found out that the pregnancy was no viable and I was beginning to miscarry. That day, My birthday, Was the worst day of our life....

We made it through, it was difficult, but we survived and grew closer together. We decided to try on our own again for a few months after getting the go ahead from the doctor. September came and we made the decision to see an RE, (Reproductive Endocrinologist). Some blood work up and a few tests, later, The doctor decided she wanted to do laproscopy and a hysteroscopy. Both are surgeries and both were done at the same time. November 17th, I went in for surgery. My RE found that I had Stage 2 Endometriosis (That actually really had affect much of my surrounding organs), A septum in my uterus, (aka- heart shaped), and 3 cysts, and several polyps. She was wonderful and was able to take care and fix Everything! After my post-op, we got the go-ahead! She recommended doing a Trigger+IUI+Progesterone. We made the decision to try on our own that first cycle after the surgery. That resulted in a BFN (BFN = Big Fat Negative). Cycle 18 of trying began on the very first day of the new year. 1/1/2012. We made the decision to move forward with the RE's original plan for us. Trigger+IUI+Progesterone.

That brings us to today. I'm on CD11, (CD = Cycle Day). I've been being monitored for the last few days. This morning I had an appointment. I have a dormant left ovary. My Right ovary has one follicle (aka Follie) that measured in at 19.5 mm. As I'm writing this, I'm waiting to hear back from the doctors office to find out if they want me to Trigger tonight. (Trigger = is an injection of Overdril I have to give myself, unless my husband decides to help me with this one.) If I trigger tonight, we'll go in tomorrow morning and Friday morning to do back to back IUIs. (IUI = Intrauterine Insemination). Then after the second IUI, I have to start the progesterone. And guess what... It's a suppository. That should be fun....

So, that's what's been going on. There have been a few other things that have been happening in the last year. But nothing as big as this..... And just because, Here is a picture of my meds...

We're doing good, and we've been taking it day by day. We've been praying and hoping. And We are excited about what this new year can bring, and we are so hopeful that this first IUI for us will be the last! Thank you all.

Update 4/12/12-

This was a posted I created back in January when I thought I was ready to come out, and I decided I wasn't ready, So much more has happened since then, a lot more tears and a lot more struggles. I'll be opening up to you, and Soon, I'll be writing an updated post of what has happened since January, and to not leave you hanging, There has yet to be a positive pregnancy test. I really hope that this not only helps me get through these days, but it helps you, to understand, and know that if you are struggling with infertility too, that you are not alone. I'm tired of living in silance and shame. 1 in every 6 couples deals with infertility.