Friday, January 30, 2009

Those Unsecure Feelings....

Yes, they are back...

I go through these stages every once in a while. Since we have moved they have become more recent. I get into this state where I'm just not sure what to do anymore. I get sick and tired of staying in the house. I get frustrated that I spent all this money to go to college and get a degree, "because that's what your supposed to do in order to get a job", and yet still have not been able to get a job in 9 months. I end up not knowing what to do with my time. I would have hobbies, if there were the extra money around to support those hobbies. I feel like I waste my brain away sitting at home, watching t.v., cleaning, watching t.v., cleaning, and one day, every other week, I have the "joy" of getting out of the house to go grocery shopping. I get stuck in this rut and it becomes so overwhelming thinking about all these things that I get depressed. I hate admitting it, I don't want to be this way, but when you are in your house all day, alone for a little over 8 hours, and then finally have someone come home, just to hang out in the house all night again, doing nothing, again, or watching t.v. again, it gets sicking, tiring, boring, lonely (even with the husband home). Having a dog is nice, but he is pretty independent himself. I guess I just don't know what to do. Where to go. How to fix it. I can only stand searching for so long. I can only stand looking at, for song long, and so on.... I really think my brain is turning into mush... that's all.

Saturday, January 10, 2009

Welcome to 2009!!!

Ok So I know it's been almost a month since my last post, but the Holidays were so hectic and I had friends come and visit last weekend! So now, as I sit here watching my last few episodes of the first season of Gray's Anatomy I figured I should at least do a little update. And I know I don't have many people look at my blog, but for the few who do welcome to 2009! I don't have the pictures on my computer yet but when I do, if it's not too far away, maybe I'll get to posting them. Christmas was crazy! The actual day of Christmas was quiet and relaxing with just me, Tim, and Winston. Tim made a nice breakfast of home-made pancakes, then we opened up our gifts, chilled out then had to clean up and get ready for the BIG family event we hosted on friday the day after Christmas, now here are some pictures of that day!!!

So there are just a few pictures to give you a glimps of ourcrazy Christmas!!

And another update!:

Tim and I will be in the Dominican Republic in one week!! We leave Friday and will be there for a week! I cannot wait for this vacation!! It is much needed!! Thats all for today!!