Thursday, April 12, 2012

When IUI doesn't work, IVF it is.

Well, I know I left you with my last post. Well, the first IUI didn't work and we tried again in February, and that IUI cycle failed as well. So, I met up with my RE to figure out where to go from here. In the end, given my diagnosis, and that fact that my endomitrosis was coming back, she suggested we move onto IVF. After a lot of thought and prayer, we decided to move forward. Now, I know what a lot of you think when you think IVF, I had thought the same things before reaching this point. IVF is NOT BY ANY MEANS AN EASY DECISION FOR A COUPLE. We didn't make this decision lightly.
This link here will help you understand In-vitro Fertilization a little better. And yes, this is the the place that I have been going to. Please, take the time to read and understand. It would help immensly.

So here is my IVF story thus far.
Back in February when after we found out that the IUI didn't work, and we made the decision to met up with the IVF doctor, I began birth control pills again. I needed to to this in order to surpress my ovaries so they didn't produce follicles and eggs. And I met with the IVF doctor. We had discussions and meetings and we had to sing A LOT of consent forms. Then I had to go though more ultrasounds, blood work, and learning how to inject myself with medications.
Here is my list of Meds:
300 IU of Follistim - this is to help you produce more than one follicle for the cycle.
10 units of Low Dose HCG - this helps the follicles and eggs mature.
Ganerlix - Which I have yet to start, this is to help you not ovulate the follicles you;ve been working so hard to grow
The Trigger shot (HCG)(haven't taken this yet) - This is what you take 36 hours prior to Egg Retrevial, (aka ER)
After the ER -
Estrogen - to help the linning
Progesterone In Oil (aka PIO) - I haven't taken this yet either, but I hear this one is no fun, this helps sustain the pregnancy and if you become pregnant from your IVF cycle, you continue this injection throughout the 1st trimester.
Here are some more pictures of the Stims and the fun it brings:
(This picture abouve also show my Lap scars)
I'm also on an antibiotic, pre-natals, and folic acid suppliment.
So I began these injections on April 6th. Every day I have to go in for monitoring as to avoid being OHSS - Ovarian hyperstimulation syndrome. (You can read about that here

They monitor you closly too to watch and make sure you follicles are growoing and your estrogen levels are moving up nicely.

That brings us today. Not an easy day and not an easy decision to make when you've been waiting so long to get here. This morning I found out that we have to cancel this cycle. This sucks on so many levels. This whole process takes it's toll on you from every angle. Emotionally, Physically, Mentally, and Finacially. We decided to cancel with the docotr recommendation because we cannot afford to waste the finaces we have left on a cycle where I only produced 4-5 follicles and only 2 of those follicles are growing nicely. They like to see around 18-20 in someone my age. They said they don't know why someone at my age had a poor resonse to the medications. Which doesn't help at all either. You want answers, and when you don't have them, it just makes this whole process that much more confusing.

We do have a few other options since I'd hate to waste these few good eggs, but I just don't see those being an option right now. The medication is such a redicoulus cost. We'd rather wait and save what we can and try try another IVF cycle. So, now, We have to patiently wait for June to role around when we can get into the next group of IVF patients.

Any thoughts, prayers, and support is greatly appreciated. As of right now, this is where we are at. this is what Infertility does to you. It makes you crazy, sad, and leaves you feeling all alone. now matter how many people you know, or what the statistics say. You still feel alone.


  1. You are right... Nothing I can say or do can even come close to making you "feel better". All I have to offer you is prayers. I will make a committment to prayer for you, Tim, and the baby God has for you each and every day. I love you.

  2. I wish I could do something to make this all better. I pray for you every night that you continue to stay strong. I have faith that you and Tim will get through this tough time because I know in my heart you will be blessed. Love you

  3. Just want you to know that my husband and I will be praying for you and Tim. We are strugling trying to make the right decision for our family, and you're right it is a tough one! I pray and hope that your June cycle is it for you!!

  4. I literally read this and the goosebumps were none stop! In 2009 I went through a really bad Miscarriage and it left me feeling how you said lonely no matter how many people are there for you, I have yet to try again because I am not at a stable point in my life doesn't mean I don't yearn everyday...This is scary I can't imagine what you must feel like even having a great man like Tim by your side still your thoughts and emotions are on a totally different plane then his. You are in my prayers every single day and I hope that you find happiness and a timeout from this process mentally in the small gifts god has given us like Winston for starters : ) I know nothing helps but you do have people that love and care for you very very much. Give Tim a hug for me too, from my experience everyone focus's on the female when it truly is very hard on the man too and I never took that into consideration until my man broke down emotionally. -Hoping every bit of happiness for you and your family

  5. Hi Kathy, I am so sorry to hear about what is going on with you and Tim. I have had Endometriosis for 25yrs. and alot of surgeries because of the damage it causes. We didn't think we could have more children after our daughter Trisha but we were lucky enough to be blessed with 3 more daughters. I did have 2 miscarriages through it all, and yes it is devastating and no one knows what its like unless they have been there. Please always remember I am here if you need to talk. Love you both very much. Sue

  6. Good luck Daisy. I hope IVF does it for you! ((Hugs))