Friday, February 13, 2009

Can't leave that one there!!

So I just realized that the last post I did was not so nice, it was a rant, and it did help me to get that off my chest. However I cannot just let that one sit there for a few weeks as the first post people see when they come to my site here. So here goes another post...

It was so nice to get out of the house!! We don't know very many people still where we live. It's all still so new, so we normally just stay in all the time, but, Monday night Tim and I went out and went bowling!!! It was so nice, we had lots of fun! His company put together this little event to get all the people oh are moving from NJ to MD to get together to meet each other since we all have the move in common and it was great to go and meet some new people. Although, as for the rest of the week, we've just been doing our normal routine, staying at home. I do have to say that I am excited for this Valentine's day. We won't really be celebrating it until Sunday, we will be going into Philly and enjoying a nice dinner at the Melting Pot!! I love the Melting Pot!!

Right now, today, at this moment, I have the dry wall guys here at my house fixing up some dry wall. I found out that the ceiling above our door to the basement was dropping, not a good thing. but it's getting taken are of now! :)

This is such a random post. Sorry it really doesn't have much of a flowing atmosphere... but I do suppose that most of my post are like this. Anyway...

Lately, (meaning the last few days), I have started getting this weird feeling like I want something, but yet, I just cannot figure out what it is I want. -Now, just to set this straight, this is much different then my usual rants of being depressed, or feeling lonely.- It just so weird because I just can't figure it out, last night we were sitting at dinner and all of a sudden I just felt the need to want something, and I hated it, not only because I could sit there for hours and still not figure out what it was that I wanted, but I just felt bad, or not right for "wanting" something. Why Was I sitting there wanting, I have all I need, I have a house, I have food, I have a loving husband, I even have a great dog! And in some cases we have been truly blessed with being able to have more than what we need. So why was I sitting there being filled with this want.... I just don't know, but I sure do know that I don't think I like it....

well, I guess that's all for today, I hope that you all have a wonderful Valentine's day! and I hope that I am able to get on here on monday and share my experience in Philly with you!! Have a great day!

Wednesday, February 04, 2009

What is wrong with some people?

*Warning* this is a rant.

I just don't understand what is wrong with some people. Not everyone understands what it is I am doing trying to find a job. Don't you people think I want to get out of my house. Don't you think I get sick and tired of being by myself. Don't you realize that I have no friends here so it's not like I'm out partying and have people to hang out with all day. I want to work, I want a job. And At times I am trying to understand what God is teaching me right now, why I don't have a job, what I'm supposed to do with my life. Don't you understand that it sucks for me, that I'm depressed enough as it is and I don't need you people telling me what to do or how to find a job or telling me that I'm not trying hard enough.... I've been trying to be patient and it doesn't help when I have people telling me that I'm not doing my best. It hurts. It does, I want to let you all know, I am trying my hardest, I'm on monster EVERY day. Some days, that's all I do. Today alone I must have spent 8 hours job hunting. It's exhausting and disappointing when the day ends and there are no results. To you people who think your jobs are stinky, try being in my shoes, be thankful for your job. That's all. I'm done now.

Tuesday, February 03, 2009

A Random Visit.

Yesterday was like every other day for me. I was bored, and tired. However, as I was on facebook I noticed that a friend of Tim and mine was getting ready to go on travel for work and would be passing us on his way down to where he was going. So I meant to leave a comment on his status, however I accidentally instant messaged him over the facebook messaging tool. From there we generated a surprise visit from him for Tim, (my husband). It was so great to have him stop by, even if it was short. It was great to have someone visit us in our home here in MD. It has been lonely, so to see a familar face, it was great!!! Darren, thanks for the visit! it was great to see you! can't wait to grab dinner with you and little miss Olivia when we come back up to NJ!!! I love when the little random things in life turn out to be the best gifts! Friendships are presious.